STARTING WITH JOHN NEWTON, VERSE FOUR OF AMAZING GRACE

 

STARTING WITH JOHN NEWTON,

VERSE FOUR OF AMAZING GRACE


            “...he will my shield and portion be…”


Thoughts which rise up in me,

while singing—Me, who has his own


personal jeweler! Who makes me shields!

Newton admits here, that he will not,


will not, sleep, in this life.

He won’t sleep in this life. We,


we want

to sleep in this life.


To me, he’s admitting,

ok, confessing, he can’t sleep


now. He doesn’t say,

He is my shield and portion--


He hears.

He hears those chained


human beings—newly what?--slaved? How?

crying in the deck


(in the depths). Below,

that’s why we listen,


now, to Aretha, her Amazing

Crossing Time And the Atlantic,


or, remember Julie Betzing?

Singing with Greater Faith,


or, Pilgrim’s Rest Baptist in Yakima,

the only white girl gone joyful,


(and remember, I have my own jeweler,

my own shield maker.) Aretha’s


syllable count can be timed and verified.

You’d sing, too, as Leonard does,


Show me the place

where the word becomes a man,


like Mahalia does, she who showed

Aretha, and then Elvis,


(But Elvis only after you’ve been

soul-shocked cross-born


before Thomas A. Dorsey,

his Precious Lord, and listened


hard enough to say, He,

will be my St. Paul),


listen then, listen too,

to Harlem Gospel Choir,


Soweto Gospel Choir,

listen to Amazing Grace on your radio,


even George Jones. But first,

Archie Shepp’s for a weekend,


only that, his Amazing Grace,

opening only then to all of his Goin Home


for, say the rest of the time you’re in,

opening then to Shepp with Horace Parlan


and Trouble in Mind.

Nina Simone, by the way, only opened one show


with Amazing Grace. Stop on that.

(I’ve never heard it.) Then,


Hank Jones and Charley Haden can be heard

and witnessed, changing you, in a medley


Abide with me, Just As I Am, Amazing Grace,

on Steal Away—Thank God! His bones


don’t break on the keys! I’m listening now--

What a friend! What a friend! Now,


all our sorrows turn towards Shepp’s

My Lord, What a Morning,


And the phone rings.

Pick up. Pick up.


And even after listening to what came in

on the phone you have enough


left to bring what you brang,

because you did, you do


bring something to this,

something never been heard.



[for my friends Barry and Marty]



Jim Bodeen

22 April 2023


HOW GILBERT CHANDLER REPRESENTS IN YAKIMA

 


Gilbert Chanlder (center), and David Marzette, (right), with Jim Bodeen. Gilbert Chandler attended the Honor Flight for veterans in Washington, D.C., March, 2023. Chandler served four years in the Air Force. David Marzette, Yakima, is a Vietnam veteran.






HOW GILBERT CHANDLER REPRESENTS IN YAKIMA

IS HOW HE REPRESENTS IN WASHINGTON, D.C.


One of us, Old Yakima, the listener.

The one who remembers,


and re-membering, knows how physical

it all is, reading signs, noting changes.


He knows how the old and local

gives way, and doesn’t, adapting.


Who was that whispering, and what

was that whisper, that kind of detail.


Who fished that pond

and what was caught there.


How it wasn’t always fish.

This paying attention is one way


to write a history book.

One way veteran’s serve.


Writing with his eyes

his knowing flies over Oklahoma.


Which man in what truck

crossing what bridge, Gilbert


is all of the above, man, truck, bridge,

and he knows what the bridge knows.


This is why in our town

the people in the know


chose Gilbert Chandler

to represent. He’ll bring back


what doesn’t get written down.

He’s our witness, local and universal.


Jim Bodeen

30 March 2023






EASTER, 2023

 

EASTER, 2023


Mom’s birthday, born 99 years ago this day,

and I open to Luke before waking Karen.


The two men in white

asking the women,

Why do you look for the living

among the dead—ropas

resplandecientes, ¿Por qué

buscan ustedes entre los muertos

al que vive?

Bob’s making rolls,

and later in the day one granddaughter

will say at table, Grandpa,

We’re built differently than you guys.


Family is coming, and Karen,

bell ringer in a bell choir,

will ring the bells

that still can ring.

Despair is a sin,

Elizabeth Kolbert says.

Literalism is for the weak, Jon Meacham says,

and fundamentalism is for the insecure.


Light rain. 45 degrees. I didn’t put all of the garden tools away

last night, and now, they’ll rust.


Luke lays out repentance and forgiveness of sins,


and in John’s Gospel, John 20:17,

Jesus says, Do not hold on to me--

Suéltame—No me toques--


        Don’t touch me.


All that work, all this work, of resurrection.


Walking the garden I say to myself,

Resurrection is hard work.


            I’m better at death.


Confronted with the Cosmic Road, what does one say?


There is no empty sky with James Webb.

Dark matter and dark energy makes up 95% of our universe.


Very real, the two of them talking grief.

On 60 Minutes? No, on the podcast!


If that’s what you're going to do,

get something out of it.

The rabbi not so old knowing he looks like his father.


The reminder-prod, truth-duality, artist-truth-walk venture--

Yes, venture, it applies.

As an app?


Good tension, good wife, good day, good god—not good god, good dog!


How I listen while transplanting trees,

the slender, young, Hinoki Cypresses, aging before my eyes.

The need for this practice, continual, like breathing.

Blessings to you and Jane--Oh, Kate Bowles' blessings at her sign-off,

fresh and beautiful.


Bart’s directing Bell Choir this Easter morning.
What a gift for me, this man who delivers
Happy Easter Music on the backbeat.

He brings the dark matter with him.
I’ve got a Tao te Ching for you that will change your DNA
Jesús says, Don’t hold on to me. You don’t say.

We’re built differently, grandpa.
Richard Rohr, he’s sick again. Light candles.

He carries it? He carries it with him?


Happy Easter to you, can we take pictures in the pews?
He brings it with him.


The garden,

Another word for it is paradise,

Is open. I sang


In your Easter bonnet

To granddaughters this week

It was a dark dark week too,

Bart is directing two choirs 

And a trio of trumpets

And he’s in heaven.


And you’re the girl I’m taking

to the Easter Parade!


Karen wants nothing to do

with hats. I gave up trying to buy Easter hats

for women after so many rejections, 


Why I tune into Rex’s sisters in Little Rock every Sunday.


Before cutting the ham we have an Easter Egg Hunt.

I picked up a couple of bags of plastic eggs at the Dollar Store.


First I planted Dum Dums making a circle of suckers

around the bonsaid pine in the ground--

a kind of ceremonial pagan May Day dance.

Jelly beans, mini Tootsie Rolls,

wrapped Hershey’s in the plastic eggs


It all gathers humming in the egg

the poet says, My sweet Lord,


My sweet Lord—I had typed

couplets from the Tao of Haven Treviño--


How do you know you’re on your way

when your map no longer serves you--


like that, and placed them in the eggs,

giving instructions to the teen-age cousins


They sat in garden chairs

out back

and read them

to each other

eating candy

before we sat down to eat.

It was noon, on Easter.


There were rocks in the eggs

and a children’s sermon

and tiny crosses

and one with nothing

and children! Nothing

of scrounging wild dogs

the cave full

with emptiness.


There were children.

I took the cousins

two teenage girls

into the rock garden


Sammie had cleaned

every rock, bringing those

already buried

along with ones

still burrowing,

to the surface.


Jim Bodeen

Semana Santa/10 April 2023








THE POETS AT HIGH CAMP

 

THE POETS AT HIGH CAMP FOR JACK KRANZ


I.


...nothing draws me to you. Everything pulls

away from me here in the noon. You are the delirious

youth of bee. The drunkedness of the wave, the power of the heat.

    --Pablo Neruda


You carried your own burden and very soon

your symptoms of creeping privilege disappeared.

    --Seamus Heaney


A tattered coat upon a stick, unless

Soul clap its hands and sing, and louder sing

For every tatter in its mortal dress

    --William Butler Yeats



We were on a chairlift on the mountain,

skiing, of all places, and it was my mountain, too,

and we had begun talking about it

at the memorial luncheon of our friend,

after the Catholic Mass. We were the ones

reciting poetry on pine tables in the lodge,

and it was after St. Patrick’s Day. The sun

was out, and you dazed me, infrastructure man,

old friend, and it was you reciting Seamus Heaney

and Yeats. I had retrieved Patrick Kavanah

from my backpack carried to the mountain

the week before. You had returned from

Kabul, from ten years in Afghanistan,

building, but you hadn’t just returned,

you had been back long enough

to build that dream house for Janie,

the one that looked like, well, the one

you modeled after houses in the desert,

with walls of shimmering, and even,

wind-swept and moving, sand—and

we were on the chairlift

in afternoon sun, when almost under

your breath, you mentioned, me hardly

hearing, and asking you to repeat, three times,

the bridge on the Drina. What is it?

What is that? I asked. The Drina,

Ivo Andric. From the workshop

with the women in Kabul. At lunch,


though, it was Seamus

and the Republic of Conscience.

It was Afghanistan, NGOs,

workshop in Kabul, three nuns,

holy ones, and Marina LeGree

teaching young women to climb

through Ascend, Jack, you talking,

She’d fly in and out of Pakistan

from Florida, a finger stick,

sharing a 20-mile border with China.

Women. No security. I was in her workshop

in the Kabul Star Hotel. She took young

women up Mt. Nawshaq, 24,580 feet.

We heard RPG fire, you know

what I mean, faster than

the speed of sound. 36 Taliban men

got up that morning knowing

they were going to die.

They hit the Indian Embassy

100 dead immediately, right…


Right into the Irish poets,

Heaney, Yeats.

(And I’m still carrying Kavanaugh’s Pegasus

from last week—that horse, too. Here!)

This is no country for old men,--

And Neruda’s brown and agile child.


Jack Kranz, builder in Afghanistan

one of ten children, can still memorize the poems,

Jack the first Catholic CO in Yakima

when America flew into Vietnam.

(Jack drove Ken Capp and I to Berkeley

that weekend to hear Rigoberta Menchu

before she was awarded the Nobel

and I returned swirling with Mari Sandoz

and Crazy Horse, archetypal images

of Latin American women,

Malinche, Guadalupe, Sor Juana.

Abrecaminos, open-the-way-ones,

from good woman bad woman,

the one you want Saturday night

the one you want Sunday morning.)

That Jack Kranz, the two of us riding

the chairlift, making our turns

after these decades, Jack talking

about the bridge on the Drina.


What’s that, Jack? What bridge?

Say that again, I didn’t get it.

What skiing is, edge and release,

how the fall line changes during descent,

after our first great losses,

weight on the down hill ski,

and the natural process of unweighting,

what it is like around sandwiches

pulled from backpacks in plastic bags.

The gold mosaic of the wall,

chance windows of poetry or prayer

and weep to their presumptions to hold...

Everything packed into chocolate chip cookie.


And the Russians in Kabul, Jack.

Do you know Svetlana Alex--

Zinky boys, Jack interrupts—Yes--

the coffins.


That whispered thread--

Jack’s voice coming from a wool mask

in wind on a mountain chairlift,

That bridge, on the river.

All of it and everything on the mountain.

I must have that book,

Ivo Andric, ambassador in house arrest.

How I first heard.

And this is what happened next.


II. THERE’S MORE THAN ONE BRIDGE CROSSING THE DRINA

So men learned from the angels of God how to build bridges, and therefore, after fountains, the greatest blessing is to build a bridge and the greatest sin to interfere with it, for every bridge, from a tree trunk crossing a mountain stream to this great erection of Mehmed Pasha, has its guardian angel who cares for it and maintains it as long as God has ordained that it should stand.

Ivo Andric


A voice behind me calls out,

Can I join you on this chairlift up the mountain?


...the words of cures and chains to heal dumbness interrupted.


All the Irish lines

My soul is an old horse,

gone like exhaled breath


Hop on, young man.

Tell me about those boards you’re riding on.

Skis bound into a mono ski? Or snowboard?

A board. I’m a dog. Prairie Dog. Love this board.

Where are you coming from.


Me, Tri-cities. No.

No, no, your soul, where is it from!

Jack this did happen like this.

Not tri-cities, Bosnia.


And why should I walk among the dead?


You’ll be dead for a million years.


Bosnia? No. Not Bosnia.

Do you know the Drina River?


I know General Mattis, too! he says.

He signed my books, two of them,

one for a friend who’s a Green Beret.

He hates being called Mad Dog!


Who? Wait.


Mattis hates the handle. He hates it.

Do you know his call sign?

Call Sign Mattis is CHAOS:


Colonel Has Another Outstanding Solution.


But the Drina, the River Drina.


Oh! Ivo Andric!

I have his book in Serb!

It’s like reading Shakespeare!


But you’ve no accent!

We came when I was three.

The ESL teacher took one listen

and says, Get out of here.

We went back when I was eight.


But the Drina. Did you cross the river. Can I buy you coffee.


We’re from Tuzla.

I’ll draw you a map.

Let me see your notebook.

Bosnia is here.

Mom was born here in Croatia.

Dad here in Serbia.

This is a 17th Century map.

Here’s the Drina.

Oh, funny. Not in the book.

There are many bridges

crossing the Drina.

I crossed at Tuzla and went to the zoo.

Then I went to the lake.


My name is Gordon Givric.

I am 27.

He shows me his poem to his girl friend,

reads it to me. Do you write poems, he asks.

His girl friend’s girlfriend says,

You’re the one, Gordon.


Thanks for this, we say to each other.


And I am a black candle burning in a snow storm.


III. FOR JACK KRANZ


He therefor desired me when I got home

to consider myself a representative

and to speak on their behalf in my own tongue.

Seamus Heaney, From the Republic of Conscience


In my reading our positions are permanent.

We are not itinerant or interim.

This is understanding that has been given

from mountain residencies.

It is good work.



Jim Bodeen

16 March—7 April 2023

Good Friday

White Pass, Cascade Mountains, Washington State